Know your lineage
Day 303/366 days Towards Self-Mastery.
For a very long time I distance myself from my family and everything they stood for. It was a matter of survival, or at least that's what it seemed.
In fact it was my adaptive way of coping with the immense hurt and pain of my childhood. Distance and isolation seemed like a great way to get away from the reactive attack and defend mentality that I'd grown up with.
Unfortunately for me, it took a while to realise that I was also part and parcel of that mentality. I'd taken it with me. Of course it was all I knew so it's not rocket science to realise that this was how I too responded.
It wasn't long before I realised that I was creating the same hurt in the world that I was subjected to as a young person. On noticing this I distance myself and isolated myself even further. I'd lost trust in myself and came to the conclusion that the least amount of contact with people was safest for everyone. I couldn't bear to see the hurt expression on someone's face from a tone or words that slipped out unfiltered.