Empathy, guilt and sadness
Day 154/366 days Towards Self-Mastery.
Black Lives Matter.
This is a time to be deeply relational. To give some time to your own emotions, and those of others.
For me, reading George Floyd's last words saddened me deeply. For a moment I imagined it was my son under that knee, my son calling "mama" in his last words.
The thoughts of the times that I have let my own son down, haven't been the perfect mother, haven't been there for him when he may have called my name in his most anguished times all came flooding in.
Guilt and sadness in a tumultuous mix of empathy for George Floyd's mother.
When we go into this place it's sometimes difficult to remember to let it go, but let it go we must. Of course it's important to put thing right in your own situation, then let it go. It will always be part of your life.
Allowing the feelings of guilt and sadness to remind me that I am a feeling, caring human being, then I remind myself to let it pass. It doesn't make me any less caring if I don't hang onto and suffer with these emotions.
366 days Towards Self-Mastery
When I considered my New Year's intentions for 2020 I had just one: To allow my heart to love what it loved...and let it lead me. (If not now, then when?)
I've spent months working on integrating my life. To live life more fully with my home life, my interests, my work, my responsibilities, all coming together, all connected. I want to give each the attention that they desire and need, and still have time and energy for the others. That means living and working from the heart.
As I was clearing out my bookshelf over the Christmas break I discovered Simple Abundance. I set it aside to explore it on New Year's Day as I lazed through another delicious day of nothingness. Sarah, the author, says this book is about living in grace. Living in grace I realised, is about Self-Mastery.
My thirst for understanding the human condition has driven me all my life, and hand-in-hand with self-mastery it has been a life-long goal. And seeing as I love to write, that living in grace is about self-mastery, and I love a bit of a challenge, then if I am truly going to let my heart lead, I really don't have any other choice. So scary as it feels, I'm starting out on a daily mission of leaning into the suggestions of this daybook and making a daily post to keep me accountable. If not now, then when?
I'm Josie. You can find out a little more about me here.
Simple Abundance: A Daybook of Comfort and Joy: by Sarah Ban Breathnach.
This book is written for the Australian and NZ market because it refers to seasonal changes. It's available on Amazon here if you'd like to follow along.