Day 340/366 days Towards Self-Mastery.
Whether we're spiritual beings having a human experience or human beings having a spiritual experience is a moot point. Knowing when and how to be both is, I think, or at least to this point of my knowing and being, the pinnacle of this life's experience.
Seriously, I spent a lifetime trying to make life work. Then when things didn't go to plan I wondered what I had done wrong. Guess how often things didn't go to plan?
Things NEVER go to plan? Why people support planning and spend hours over business plans and life plans and every other plan I'll never fathom. I guess that, like me, they have to discover that plans don't actually ever work.
Instead of making life work I decided to simply work life, and give that a go for a while. Instead of planning I would see what happens next and do what has to be done.
It took a while to get into the hang of it. My whole being wanted certainty. It felt like there was safety in the plan. Reminding myself over and over that the plan is about delaying coming to terms with what is. It's not about safety, but I kept telling myself that lie.
When I look back I wonder if this is when I switched from being the human having a spiritual experience, to being a spiritual being having a human experience. I still feel fully human, and I feel also that I'm straddling two worlds. One that insists on planning, and the other that accepts what is, does the next thing, and life goes on with perfect precision and synchronicity. Go figure. I never achieved that with planning.
When I'm being in my really messy human being, I'll get upset when people project their road rage at me or show their frustration when I don't understand something. When I'm more in my spiritual being I'll let it evaporate in the ether and get on with the next thing.
It's not always an easy fix. In fact it's far from easy until you really know yourself deeply. The reason someone's projection impacts me is because that little voice, "what have I done wrong" emerges for reassurance. My spiritual being reassures it, my human being wallows in the misery of it.
I guess that my best advice if you're trying to figure out this mystery that is life, is to keep trying, and try doing things differently. The old adage, if we keep doing the same thing and expect different results it might actually be true that it's a sign of insanity,... or is that being human?
366 days Towards Self-Mastery
When I considered my New Year's intentions for 2020 I had just one: To allow my heart to love what it loved...and let it lead me. (If not now, then when?)
I've spent months working on integrating my life. To live life more fully with my home life, my interests, my work, my responsibilities, all coming together, all connected. I want to give each the attention that they desire and need, and still have time and energy for the others. That means living and working from the heart.
As I was clearing out my bookshelf over the Christmas break I discovered Simple Abundance. I set it aside to explore it on New Year's Day as I lazed through another delicious day of nothingness. Sarah, the author, says this book is about living in grace. Living in grace I realised, is about Self-Mastery.
My thirst for understanding the human condition has driven me all my life, and hand-in-hand with self-mastery it has been a life-long goal. And seeing as I love to write, that living in grace is about self-mastery, and I love a bit of a challenge, then if I am truly going to let my heart lead, I really don't have any other choice. So scary as it feels, I'm starting out on a daily mission of leaning into the suggestions of this daybook and making a daily post to keep me accountable. If not now, then when?
I'm Josie. You can find out a little more about me here.
Simple Abundance: A Daybook of Comfort and Joy: by Sarah Ban Breathnach.
This book is written for the Australian and NZ market because it refers to seasonal changes. It's available on Amazon here if you'd like to follow along.