Day 253/366 days Towards Self-Mastery.
Is it really a dream, a passion, a drive? I'm not sure if any of those really captures the essence of that guiding thing that keeps you going, seeking, searching, until it's discovered, found, manifested into reality.
Sarah speaks in her essay this morning about pacing yourself once you've discovered that thing that fulfils you. Pacing yourself around your life and work and children and home and any other commitments that you may have. Using these to fill you up to be more of you to put into that thing.
It's not a sprint, it's a marathon. There's probably going to be few in the cheerleader squad. And more likely more who are willing to question your motives and your sanity for sticking with your dream no matter what.
At 5 years of age I cared about people hurting. I comforted, hugged, held hands and walked with anyone with a playground scrape to the first aid station.
My family worries became my worries. I searched for every way possible to bring joy and comfort to those who were troubled.
At 15 I decided that nursing was my thing, only to find that patching up people after injuries or surgery wasn't my thing after all.
Becoming a midwife took my attention. I made a career out of caring for birthing mothers, sick babies and caring for a committed and passionate team of coworkers.
All the time my curiosity was fixed on the discovering the drivers of life itself. I thought caring and this fixation on life were the same thing. They're not.
I kept going. While raising my son I researched the mind-body connection. Was there a connection? What was it? How did it work?
Energy healing practices showed me how powerful working with the energy and information of the body could be. For some years I pursued this path.
Still my drive was not satisfied. How can I bring this knowledge to others so that they may heal their lives at their own pace?
All this knowledge gained has yet to find a suitable outlet. Right now I provide one-on-one session work with clients to support their individual journeys. It's transformational work. It's empowering.
Maybe I've found the vehicle to share my knowledge and skills in a way that supports others. Maybe something else is possible.
366 days Towards Self-Mastery
When I considered my New Year's intentions for 2020 I had just one: To allow my heart to love what it loved...and let it lead me. (If not now, then when?)
I've spent months working on integrating my life. To live life more fully with my home life, my interests, my work, my responsibilities, all coming together, all connected. I want to give each the attention that they desire and need, and still have time and energy for the others. That means living and working from the heart.
As I was clearing out my bookshelf over the Christmas break I discovered Simple Abundance. I set it aside to explore it on New Year's Day as I lazed through another delicious day of nothingness. Sarah, the author, says this book is about living in grace. Living in grace I realised, is about Self-Mastery.
My thirst for understanding the human condition has driven me all my life, and hand-in-hand with self-mastery it has been a life-long goal. And seeing as I love to write, that living in grace is about self-mastery, and I love a bit of a challenge, then if I am truly going to let my heart lead, I really don't have any other choice. So scary as it feels, I'm starting out on a daily mission of leaning into the suggestions of this daybook and making a daily post to keep me accountable. If not now, then when?
I'm Josie. You can find out a little more about me here.
Simple Abundance: A Daybook of Comfort and Joy: by Sarah Ban Breathnach.
This book is written for the Australian and NZ market because it refers to seasonal changes. It's available on Amazon here if you'd like to follow along.