Day 252/366 days Towards Self-Mastery.
Initially I thought it was success, then I thought it was happiness. After a while I thought it was contentment. Then I changed my mind and figured it was about finding that still point where everything just falls into place.
From an early age I could identify an inner drive, a searching for understanding. That drive has compelled me all my life. Nothing would stand in the way of moving in the direction of the answers I was seeking.
Is that courage?
In some way there was a lot of courage needed to push on, no matter what.
Like a boat under sail in raging seas, sometimes it felt as though I just had to hang on for the ride. All the damage that was sustained along the way required mending, so that the journey could continue.
Ultimately I discovered that what I was seeking was to know myself completely. To understand the aspects of myself that made me who I am.
Every experience was an opportunity to know myself better. I simply didn't realise it. Trading one experience for another was my way to know each and every separate aspect better, until they could all become one integrated whole.
What's next? What else is possible?
Keep going. If you still have unanswered questions or unresolved concerns, keep going. That's courage.
366 days Towards Self-Mastery
When I considered my New Year's intentions for 2020 I had just one: To allow my heart to love what it loved...and let it lead me. (If not now, then when?)
I've spent months working on integrating my life. To live life more fully with my home life, my interests, my work, my responsibilities, all coming together, all connected. I want to give each the attention that they desire and need, and still have time and energy for the others. That means living and working from the heart.
As I was clearing out my bookshelf over the Christmas break I discovered Simple Abundance. I set it aside to explore it on New Year's Day as I lazed through another delicious day of nothingness. Sarah, the author, says this book is about living in grace. Living in grace I realised, is about Self-Mastery.
My thirst for understanding the human condition has driven me all my life, and hand-in-hand with self-mastery it has been a life-long goal. And seeing as I love to write, that living in grace is about self-mastery, and I love a bit of a challenge, then if I am truly going to let my heart lead, I really don't have any other choice. So scary as it feels, I'm starting out on a daily mission of leaning into the suggestions of this daybook and making a daily post to keep me accountable. If not now, then when?
I'm Josie. You can find out a little more about me here.
Simple Abundance: A Daybook of Comfort and Joy: by Sarah Ban Breathnach.
This book is written for the Australian and NZ market because it refers to seasonal changes. It's available on Amazon here if you'd like to follow along.